So like I stated in my first post I have alot of stuff to do! I have to balance like 5 spinning plates, and it’s not fun. Well, I can’t lie, I really do like having so much to do. I need to keep myself buried so I won’t think about what’s going on around me. It’s like I’m submerging myself in water and I can’t hear what’s going on, and if I do hear it, it’s at a lower decibel… I dunno, I guess I’ll leave that kind of stuff to markese.
In case you don’t know, Markese is my alterego…. check out his blog at markese91.blogspot.com and you’ll find out what I mean.
But anyway, I now wrestle. Wrestling is so hard for me but I made a vow to myself that I wouldn’t quit anything. I don’t know why I made that vow! I mean, I don’t lift weights, I’ve never lifted weights and now I do at every practice which is practically every day! And then we have to wrestle. It seems no one on the team likes me or is my size or whatever, because I never have a partner and when I do we have to go so slow because of the stuff I missed when I didn’t have a partner. I don’t have that much upper body strength, so the moves are a little harder for me… I just want to quit! But I won’t.
I’m on yearbook too though. That’s like my freaking hardest class! Well, not the hardest, it’s the most demanding. I like always have a camera, and I’m always thinking about my spreads, and quotes, and what I can do to make the yearbook better but I don’t tell anyone. I work on all of my spreads and I get aggrivated when I’m working with other people. I’m kind of an independent person and if i’m working with someone else and they change something I’ve done apparently for the better and it actually messes up my grade I get easily angered. After something like that I’m not very prone to trust that person with something like that again. I have to work on that. The problem is it happens alot. Yearbook is weighing me down with the drama and deadlines and all that stuff…. I REALLY WANT TO QUIT! But I won’t.
The last thing I guess I’m going to talk about is StuGo. I had big ideas for this year, HUGE IDEAS! And guess what, budget cuts! The year I come onto the scene and plan out everything we get budget cuts! so you know what I do, I go outside of StuGo… i go to the community. I go to my TSA group and decide to take one of my ideas to them. I take the Fashion show idea and they tell me it’s iffy. They’re not sure but if I do the work, they’ll back it. so you know what I do, I work my behind off to get that work done. I contact designers and retailers and research fashion shows and watch hours of film, and even scout out possible girls from school to participate in the show. And about a month and a half before the event, my main retailer drops off the face of the earth. Well at least that’s my interpretation of it. what else am I supposed to think when all of a sudden she quits returning my emails? When I go to finialize plans and I’m about to hold a formal casting, she bails? What am I supposed to do? Then Mrs. Richbourg is mad because there aren’t any events going on? That makes me…. I MUST QUIT! But I won’t
I won’t because it’s stupid
I won’t because I’m not.
I won’t because of one fact
If i do, Project Oreo, will be no more….
I’ll go crazy with boredom!